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disappearing

an appearance demands
     a physicality, whose balance
     both demands and exudes purpose
and the stage is salty wet with lamentations, curses,
     the unfairness of it all
     the choppy swell
          of the level playing field drowning
          in its own tears
the hopes, the aspirations of this single chance
          of life
and all its borrowed abundance.
 
no choice, out of nothing but no choice.
creatures of the moment, trapped in a brief instant,
prised out of the enormous enormity,
     no purpose here
     no selected team today
to complete the mindless relay 
 
under starter's orders we writhe,
     crawl, totter, walk, amble, run
blindly leading the blind
     with erudite emptiness
and learn-ed philosophy to ease the pain
     of physicality,
     whose balance still
both demands, seeks and manifests purpose
     on the slippery stage.
 
as we tire, urgently breasting the end tape,
we writhe once more in pain
     lamenting the loss and counting the gain,
     ship the oars and unfairly drift
at the mercy of the fading dream.

 some life! some death!
a transient nothingness disappearing,
     the parting waters departing
     with the drowned, whose wet memories merge
          merge and are lost
into some vast ocean which knows no depth
     and flows into itself
     over and over
          and never knows the pain
          of the tears
which are its eternal spring.

 such sick physicality appears --
     endlessly appears --
and just as endlessly
     disappears
for life and death are one

 
5 April 2009